When I was 15 years old, I prayed that one day God would bless me with a blue eyed, blonde, curly haired girl. You see, I'm totally the opposite. I'm dark brunette with deep chocolate eyes. I also prayed that she'd be taller than me and would not be fair like me.
I know now that this was a pretty selfish little prayer, but for a 15 year old, I didn't realize that. You see, half of my life was lived for just me...praying selfish prayers, looking to my own interests, and thinking of God as an "ALL YOU CAN WISH" type of genie. I was young. I didn't understand. I just didn't get it.
But you know what? For some reason, God gave me what I asked for, plus so much more. He blessed me with a wonderful husband. He blessed my husband and I with a beautiful daughter. Our sweet child is 5'6" tall, with gorgeous bright, BIG blue-eyes...as blue as the sky and long beautiful, thick curly blonde hair...though she straightens it with a flat iron! He also gave us two tall, handsome, strong, sweet sons. One with fair hair and beautiful blue eyes like his sister. This is really a miracle considering that both my husband and I have dark hair (minus the grays) and dark eyes.
Why did God do this? Why did He answer so many other of my selfish prayers through all of those years? Maybe it was because He wanted me to know Him. Maybe He was showing me that He cares about every little detail in my life. He cares about my worries, my burdens, my heartbreaks, my pain. He is a God of miracles and awesome power, but also a God of great love and attention. He LOVES me for who I am. A sinner redeemed by the Blood of His Precious Son.
All I know is that He is a God of Great Abundance and even when He doesn't answer my prayers the way I sometimes want, He does answer them. I understand now that when I don't get what I pray for, it is because He has something so much better in mind. Just like us parents, we sometimes tell our children 'no' to things that are not in their best interests. He is looking at the long term - eternal life. WE can trust Him to be faithful in answering our prayers. He loves us so very much!
"You faithfully answer our prayers with awesome deeds, O God our savior." Psalm 66:5
In His Love, Cathy
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